Renegade Who Had It Made

I am a visual collector.
An ambitious 20something with a passion for photography, rebellion, and lust for NYC.

Permalink A copy of a copy of a copy. #fightclub feelings.

Work is always Work

Approximately 6 months (sometimes less) into every job I’ve ever had, I grow really restless and irritated, and often look for other work and/or just get jaded and grumpy with whatever I’m doing. I sabotage myself, mostly, into thinking I don’t like my job anymore and it’s not for me, and if I could only score my Dream Job, I’d be happy. I tie all of my energy into being disappointed with my work ethic. This is why, although I’m a very hard worker, I often leave jobs shortly after feeling they aren’t challenging anymore. Would you believe it took Jack from Nightmare Before Christmas (coupled with Jill being the absolute best voice of reason) to help me realize a job is only a job, and even a Dream Job would eventually feel like Work. People get tired of the monotony and I’m not alone at all. If I just stick it out past this phase of mopeyness, I’ll relax and move forward. I get so wound up over work that I stop seeing the things I loved about the job my first week, and what drew me in in the first place. If I’m meant to move on, the opportunity will present itself, but I need to stop shooting myself in the foot in the first place, and just be the best I can be at where I am now; learn how to use my time wisely, versus feeling like I’m wasting it.      /that’s all.

Permalink Just feelin myself today. October makes me want to dress up every single day as a different version of myself. #shamelessselfie
Permalink In October, she disappeared. #andrewmcmahoninthewilderness
Permalink @amnthewilderness has put out an album for every season of my life. It started when I was a pretty little #punkrockprincess, having #konstantine on repeat for a year. Then I met #MissDelaney, my old lady car (who was, naturally, #darkbluedarkblue) that I drove until the floor fell out Barney Rubble-style. I felt like a #glasspassenger, #dancingwithagun, waiting to see where my new New York life might take me, falling hard in love as a girl with chipped red nail polish (who’s dress looked better underneath her feet, her knees in the dark) with a girl that makes me see colors when I hear her voice. And now this. The soundtrack love letter to October. #andrewmcmahoninthewilderness  My favorite singer-songwriter, forever and today. I cannot wait to see him perform in November at Irving Plaza. I can still be ruthless if you let me.


Here’s how ikea gets you - you walk in knowing exactly what couch you want (because you’re a conscious shopper who did catalog & online pre shopping homework), you spend an hour walking around looking for it so you can test sit in it, you write the couch # down to pick it up downstairs, you get all the way downstairs (after hating life, getting lost, picking up a thousand more-than-reasonably priced candles, getting food and finally feeling better) to wait in a printout line followed by a checkout line for at least half an hour, just to find out the couch you picked requires a separate processing warehouse pickup. The previously described process takes a minimum of 2 hours. Once you’re at the separate warehouse station, you get to wait another 3 hours for them to personally pick your couch box off a shelf for you, when really you should have placed your couch order BEFORE YOU WASTED YOUR WHOLE AFTERNOON BUYING OTHER IKEA SHIT FUCK ALL.

Whatever happened to Saturday night
When you dressed up sharp and you felt alright

Not everyone got to truly meet their future wife while rehearsing Hot Patootie on a budget-theater stage floor, covered in glitter and toilet paper. But Jill and I? We are the lucky ones <3 She’s the Eddie to my Columbia, forever.

Everything I know I learned from the Rocky Horror Picture Show


1. Gay is okay. image

2. Straight is okay. image

3. Crazy is awesome. image

4. Transvestites are fine. image

5. Rock ‘n roll is fantastic. image

6. How to do the time warp. image

7.Balding men can be cool. image

8. Wheelchair-bound doesn’t make you anything less than you are. image

9.Feeling sexy is nothing to be ashamed of. image

10.Dress to express. image

11. Don’t dream it, be it. image

Permalink October Monday thoughts.